What you have seen you cannot unsee. And the eye with which you see God is the same eye with which He sees you. Once you have broken through to the heavenly throne of the Almighty, a portal between worlds has been opened that cannot be closed. Now you are God’s.
What does this mean? It means that you cannot return to “riotous living” because God is no longer just a metaphysical abstraction: He is now your Father. He will rebuke you if you put a foot wrong. And His rebuke is like burning coals heaped on your head.
The Father loves you with a fierce love, “for the Father loveth the Son” (John 5:20), and if you are not to suffer the beams of His love, you must love Him back: “Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy strength, and with all thy mind” (Luke 10:27).
If you don’t want to suffer you must align yourself with the loving energy of the Holy Spirit and get straight with God. And if being the Son of God goes to your head, God will have no compunction in humbling and humiliating and even crucifying your ego.
So be careful what you wish for…